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Tango… pentru c\u0103 nu trebuie<\/p>\n
De ce tango? Pentru c\u0103 nu-mi cere niciodat\u0103 s\u0103 anticipez, pentru c\u0103 m\u0103 educ\u0103 s\u0103 ascult f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 \u00eentrerup, pentru c\u0103-mi cere s\u0103 urmez f\u0103r\u0103 a m\u0103 \u00eentreba de ce o fac, pentru c\u0103 nu are proceduri \u0219i reguli stricte, pentru c\u0103 „gre\u0219elile” sunt rezultate ale imagina\u021biei, pentu c\u0103 pot \u00eenchide ochii f\u0103r\u0103 teama de necunoscut, pentru c\u0103 poate fi brutal de frumos \u0219i delicat \u00een acela\u0219i timp, pentru c\u0103 nu-mi invadeaz\u0103 spa\u021biul, pentru c\u0103…pentru c\u0103 este opusul a ceea ce realitatea \u00eemi cere zi de zi…imaginea mea r\u0103sturnat\u0103 \u00een oglind\u0103!<\/p>\n
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Dumnezeu\u2026 c\u00e2nd m-a daruit<\/p>\n
Dumnezeu trebuie s\u0103 m\u0103 fi conceput la congruen\u021ba dintre H2O si O2. N-a\u0219 putea afirma cu precizie ce c\u0103uta acolo \u00een miez de noapte, pe 3 august prin ’82, dar cu siguran\u021b\u0103 f\u0103cea o baie \u00een mare, pentru c\u0103 altfel nu se explic\u0103 dependen\u021ba mea de lichidul salin \u0219i nisipos. Nimic nu m\u0103 face s\u0103 m\u0103 simt mai liber\u0103, mai u\u0219oar\u0103, mai senin\u0103 \u0219i mai fericit\u0103 a\u0219a cum reu\u0219e\u0219te marea, c\u00e2nd m\u0103 \u021bine \u00een bra\u021bele ei. M\u0103 simt at\u00e2t de acas\u0103, at\u00e2t de \u00een siguran\u021b\u0103, ca \u0219i cum nimic nu-mi poate afecta echilibrul dintre afar\u0103\u00a0\u0219i \u00een\u0103untru. M\u0103 simt ca atunci c\u00e2nd mama m-a purtat \u00een p\u00e2ntece, c\u00e2nd probabil lumea din\u0103untrul ei era lumea din exteriorul meu, c\u00e2nd nu exista\u00a0pericol. Mi-ar fi pl\u0103cut s\u0103 am amintirea acelor 9 luni \u2026 de\u0219i memoria acelor zile probabil c\u0103\u00a0alearg\u0103 \u00een ADN-ul meu, care se dizolv\u0103 la fiecare contact al pielii cu marea.\u00a0O libertate ce \u00eemi inund\u0103 fiecare celul\u0103.<\/p>\n
C\u00e2nd va fi s\u0103 fie, a\u0219 vrea s\u0103 fiu una cu marea!<\/p>\n
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Trebuie s\u0103 …<\/p>\n
M\u0103 trezesc \u00een fiecare diminea\u021b\u0103 cu con\u0219tiin\u021ba lui trebuie\u201d. Azi trebuie\u201d s\u0103 fiu punctual, azi trebuie\u201d s\u0103-mi termin raportul la care lucrez de o s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2na, azi trebuie \u201d s\u0103 \u00eenapoiez cartea colegei cu regretul c\u0103 nu am apucat s\u0103 o termin, azi \u201dtrebuie\u201d s\u0103 fiu angajatul la nivelul a\u0219tept\u0103rilor\u201d, colega cu spirit de echip\u0103\u201d , locatarul bun platnic\u201d, etc… \u0218i pentru c\u0103 societatea s-a ocupat s\u0103-mi educe spiritul civic, iar familia mi-a inoculat sim\u021bul datoriei, voi transforma la sf\u00e2r\u0219itul zilei pe acel \u201dtrebuie \u201d \u00een „done\u201d. Ca s\u0103 constat la orele 23, b\u0103tute fix \u00een ceasul din perete, c\u0103 „I’m done with me\u201d. Mai am o or\u0103 \u00een care ar fi „trebuit\u201d s\u0103-mi amintesc c\u0103 pantofii de tango s-au sim\u021bit stingherii azi f\u0103r\u0103 perechea lor, c\u0103 cea\u0219ca de cafea uitat\u0103 pe birou s-a sim\u021bit goal\u0103 f\u0103r\u0103 g\u00e2ndurile mele adunate \u00een za\u021bul ei, c\u0103 luna septembrie at\u00e2rn\u0103 greu \u00een calendarul de pe u\u0219\u0103, pentru c\u0103 am uitat s\u0103 smulg augustul din drumul ei. At\u00e2tea lucruri de care nu mai am timp, \u0219i at\u00e2ta din mine abandonat\u0103 \u00een tot acest timp. A\u0219vrea ca \u201ddone-ul” de m\u00e2ine s\u0103 fie absolutul acelui \u201dtrebuie\u201d ca s\u0103 nu mai duc grija lucrurilor insipide uit\u00e2nd de grija celor care m\u0103 iubesc (sau pe care \u00eei iubesc?). Azi Ana a\u021bipat la mine „Traie\u0219te, \u021bi-am zis!\u201d, de\u0219i m\u0103 obi\u0219nuisem cu „Treze\u0219te-te, \u021bi-am zis!\u201d \u2026<\/p>\n
E drept, am cam uitat cum este s\u0103 Tr\u0103ie\u0219ti \u015fi f\u0103r\u0103 \u201dtrebuie\u201d!<\/p>\n
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A\u0219a cum am promis, blogul \u00eencepe s\u0103 primeasc\u0103 „musafiri”. Primele trei texte apar\u021bin M\u0103d\u0103linei Vaiti\u0219. A\u0219tept mailurile voastre pe\u00a0adresa codrut@jurnaldebancher.ro Tango… pentru c\u0103 nu trebuie De ce tango? Pentru c\u0103 nu-mi cere niciodat\u0103 s\u0103 anticipez, pentru c\u0103 m\u0103 educ\u0103 s\u0103 ascult f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 \u00eentrerup, pentru c\u0103-mi cere s\u0103 urmez f\u0103r\u0103 a m\u0103 \u00eentreba de […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[8,10],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.jurnaldebancher.ro\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/123"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.jurnaldebancher.ro\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.jurnaldebancher.ro\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.jurnaldebancher.ro\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.jurnaldebancher.ro\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=123"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/www.jurnaldebancher.ro\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/123\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":125,"href":"https:\/\/www.jurnaldebancher.ro\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/123\/revisions\/125"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.jurnaldebancher.ro\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=123"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.jurnaldebancher.ro\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=123"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.jurnaldebancher.ro\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=123"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}